Rolling Stone magazine moves on from libel to cognitive dissonance:
Nicki alludes to a pregnancy that ended in abortion on the Pinkprint.
Minaj’s first love was an older guy from Queens she dated while attending the prestigious Manhattan performing-arts high school LaGuardia. When she discovered she was pregnant, “I thought I was going to die,” she admits. “I was a teenager. It was the hardest thing I’d ever gone through.” She ended up having an abortion, a decision she says has “haunted me all my life”....
An interesting observation to publicly disclose, given the fact that such hauntings - which are common, if not universal - continue to reside in the "things of which never to be spoken" realm as far as the popular culture and media are concerned.
Which probably explains the rest of Miss Minaj's sentence.
....though it was the right choice for her at the time. “It’d be contradictory if I said I wasn’t pro-choice. I wasn’t ready. I didn’t have anything to offer a child.”
Well, then, Nicki, maybe you shouldn't have mattress-backed for that "older guy from Queens" until you - and he - did have something to offer a child. Maybe he just used you for his own gratification and then ditched you once he found out his bun was in your oven - an assumption I have to make from the implication that he's not still in your life. Maybe RS should have headlined this story "A Rape In Queens".
It's never the "right choice" to take an innocent life, Miss Minaj. The sad - and, hopefully, hopeful - part is you seem to instinctively realize this, and are being held back by debauched pop culture lag. Which is pretty clearly causing her no small degree of angst.
She first rapped about the experience on a mixtape track called “Autobiography” she says she “didn’t expect anyone to hear.” Now the world is listening to every word she says very carefully: “Millions of people are gonna hear it. And you gotta watch everything you say — people find an issue with every f*cking thing.”
In other words, she realizes that the abortion was wrong, that she should have had her baby, and is tortured wondering who that child was and would have become. But she'll complete that pro-life journey at her own pace.
Just as long as she completes it. God willing.
Especially for her first-unborn's future half-siblings' sake. After all, there are a lot more "older guys from Queens" where the first one came from.
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